should have not done that.

life is unpredictable isn't it?

a great day was unpleasant after all.

i thought i will be fine

but it turns to be otherwise

suck

i hate it

now i can't do anything bout it

i mean i can

but it will take my precious time

and time is scarce

ok ok econ has really made my life meaningful here

what should i do.

-_- x_x

i thought i have made a right decision

i should have thought of the pros and cons and be persistent

but i didn't.

when time is pushing you to think hard, do you think you can think rationally?

needs and wants are different.

if i do what i think i should do, will i feel a lot better?

this is surely a lesson for me. at least.

feel like to scream out loud and go back to the past. but i can't

think again baizura. think. make it worth.

when homework strikes.

whenever I had a long holiday, I mean a very long holiday I get very very very excited to get back to school. I can't wait to do homework but not quizzes or exams. I wish I loved exams. once I did, I feel like I want to turn the clock anti clockwise thousands times.

1. ECON: Homework due on next Monday. (try to finish before friday) ;)
2. Adolescence Dev: Quiz!! due 9pm today! (so do it now!)
3. Adole. Dev: Outline. Due tomorrow. (gonna do this afternoon)

study study study reading reading reading, a quick reminder for youuu. i mean myself.

Math 140! quiz on Wed. Oh, I love quiz, don't I?


i love school. i love school. i love school. i looveee school.

repeat thousands time youu baizura. it will not be a burden. anymore. wee.

p/s: I'm so dead. It's raining now. It's raining heavily. Thunders. The weather forecast was right. I should have taken it seriously. Now how can I get to the 8am class without getting wet? I should have bought an umbrella yesterday. :(

It's Sunday.

I always love Sunday. But i think i love Saturday more. So sorry mister Sunday. Urgh.
Anyhow, something happen that cause my night to be unpleasant. I don't hate it. I'm stuck in the middle. Iftar with all Malaysians and MSD Officer plus Petronas officer was heaven because of one little creature called CHICKEN. Make that Halal Chicken. ;) Met seniors and I could almost remember all of their names. Proud of myself. Lol. ;P Finished dining, we were about to head down to the exit when we saw people doing art stuffs. I like. we decided to stop by. ended up spending time there for about 2 hours. showed our Penn State Id and walla, they gave us a file and we are pleased to decorate them. Right at that very moment i knew why i wanted to do this. i used to do kind of the same thing but with different intention. i decorated two small cute vases exclusively for myself. i thought of giving one to her but it was too early. so it is time.
taddaaaaa. i made a file for my room mate, Marie!

thank you so much iliani. she drew the front page perfectly!!!


our special guest of the day, Miss Iliani the great artist!

trying hard to look artistic

Jannah to Rachel. Baizura to Marie. Glad they both like what we did for them. :)
sangat suka butterfly Jannah made.

Hani to Catherine. You should see Catherine's reaction! She got so excited that she kept on saying "This is so cute! You're so nice!" and looked at me, "Awak Cakak?? right?" and I would go, "Nooo, it is 'Awak Kacak!", all of us can't stop laughing out loud. the story behind 'awak kacak' begins when she told us she has a crush on this one guy named Mr J. She wanted to tell him she likes him but she doesn't want him to know that. So she asks both of us how to say 'You are cute or handsome' in Malay. That's when we officially becoming Catherine's Malay Language tutor. Hani's room mate is super cheerful. The next morning when I came in their place, Hani showed me where Catherine placed the file: near her bed and became her another room's decoration. ain't that sweet?

us. us. puas hati!
(low resolution of my demam camera. isk)

-end of saturday night-

sunday. sunday.

I gave Marie my masterpiece. She likes it. Weee
"This is awesome! So cool! Thanks Shari'

;)

sore throat was very very bad that I could barely speak. I had to break the fast and drink water. and I did. ;(

Dinner at Findlay. I managed to snap my meal. Wee. and brought back some desert too. ;P

pasta + corn + boiled egg+ tuna+ pennsylvania sup (nang ada)


waffle made by Hani. Her must have meal.

walking back to our room with full stomach.
"Kenyang nye. Bahaya ni"
haish.
loosing weight is now is only a dream.
lalalalala....

x_x

good bye Sunday. Welcome Monday.

10.10-11.00 : Macroecons
(I like econ but i need a study group badly)
2.30-3.20: Math 140
(Mr Kaz is one funny man. Replace an elephant into x in 1/x? LOL)
4.40-5.30: Adolescence Development
(Prof is hilarious, he succeed in the effort to make his students not to drft away)

p/s: Sleepy head, never ever ever wakes up late again! please please.

Pictures. Salam perantauan.

some photos. from seniors. yup,we are loads.
(me in blue and white!! second from the right in front row. purposely wearing penn state theme. ngee)

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA AND RAYA!

Raya won't be so Raya since we might be celebrating raya during exams week. Aigoo. tak mantap~

*lalalala singing balek kampong. Dush sedih terasa dihati. wuuu*

***

once upon a time, somewhere near Walmart, Cici's pizza. With Iliani and Umar. Eating all out for almost two hours. Crazy. Oh hoh Let's eat pizza!!


or not.

Fasting month laaa. ayoo.

Biah dan Addy and Pijan

see, now that I'm free, well just for today, saturday, i want to share whatever i have on my mind here. whatever it can be just hang on me. alright?

i downloaded voip stunt weeks ago. i did that because almost all of my friends are using this software. i didn't know how and why i should be using it since i have my phone and access to internet. i'm very bad with technology. very bad. i can be the last person to know that iphone is a phone. lol. okay that sounds ridiculous.

one night, i spent about a half an hour in Ezzaida's room, copying the Math's notes. While i was focusing on doing my thing, she rang her mom. "Assamualaikum... (i think she's talking to her brother in a very soft and lovely voice...wah kakak mithali, unlike me..hahaha whenever i call my sis or bro, i will go like " hello, hey, what are you doing? where's mom? i want to talk to mom." in a very monotonous tone, heh pardon me), tengah buat ape? (what are you doing?) bukak puasa makan ape?(what did you have for iftar?) mak ade? (is mom there?) mak tade..tape tape... nanti akak call balek.. (she's not? ok nevermind..i'll call you back later..)" and so on....

call ended.

"Hey Ezzaida, what did you use to call home? " , I guessed it must be skype or ym.
"I use voip stunt", in a convincing voice, she replied.
"Oh yeah, I have one but i never use, even once.", me being so clueless.
"Really? You should give it a try. It's wayyy cheaper. 0.05 pound per minit to unfixed line, and fixed line is free!!! You will only need to pay 10pound which is $13.00++" she claimed.
"Ohhhhh... I should give it a try.."


and now, i mean yesterday, I used it for the first time to call home. weee..

and just now, i called Pijan, he's in Korea. Luckily he has fixed line number so it's freeeee....

"Hey Pijan, what's up with Korea? Aneyo sayonggg"
"Aneyo sayonggg... hey mannn! Korea is just fine, it's autumn now"
"Uh-huh. It's almost fall here but summer is still on and it is freaking hot!"
"Huh? What's with the 'uh-huh'? you are only there for one month and you are speaking as though as you are an African American!"
"Heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy no way. I am not!!!! That is just a simple 'uh-huh'"
"No. you said 'uh-hukkk"
"Ewww. you made it sounds terrible"
"Hahahahhaha"

*we spoke in Malay actually and same goes with below's.

next on was Biah aka Beyaaa...we talked for almost an hour. everytime she asked me to hung up, something came out from my mind and kept the conversation on. Haiyo Biah, although it feels like dreaming to type this words out, yes, I DO MISS YOUUUUUUUUUUUU... I miss crapping with you. I miss gossipping with you. I miss stalking people we both know nothing about.. ahhaha i miss those moment. i know i know, you miss me too. i can sense that in you voice though you are thousands kilometer away from me. you will deny the fact you miss me. oh you, stop living in denial! haha and i know i know if you read this you will go " Hah perasan la.." Never mind, i will comprehend the opposite.

"Hey Biah, when are you getting a boyfriend huh?" me
"Huh? I will get one once you have one." her
"Cehh. Wth? You can't do that. Suka suki hati je.." me
"Of course I can, you are my bench mark" her
"Ha.ha. I'm impressed." me

LOL.

Next on...

Addyyyyyy... another bff.
Addy was pissed off when she knew that I went out with Beya without asking her out too.
Addyyyy, I am so so sorry. I don't know what went wrong with me, maybe the anxiety of leaving home without proper preparation led me to act that way. I am so sorry.

"Oh yea, Add, what happen to that ****" me
"Huh? Ohhhh.. you know what?? he said ****"
"What??? OMG OMG OMG!! Hahaha I knew it. I knew it!! I can read his mind" me being psychic
"Haha, you are right.." her

* details are prohibited to be posted here.

oh addy and biah, I miss you girls. ;(

addy (in red) , future doctor. i can't wait for all of us to get a job, get married, have kids..blablabla ok ok stop, that is so cliche. eheh.

Beya, a part time model and stalker and full time medic student on the left. Cabin crew konon! heh. Beya yang suka berangan. Aigooo. =P

both of you, good luck in IELTS.
to Pijan, good luck in... whatever you do..haha you can be my Korean agent to find cute guys. Lol.
p/s: I don't think i have any of you pic. Right?

wonder girls.

wonder-what?

wonder girls.

korean.

i was in your place. i was puzzled of who they are. in fact up until i don't know much about them. i know they can dance. and i love the dance. thumbs up!

Biah aka Beyaaaaaaaaaaaaa introduced me this group.

Thanks Biahhhhh. I totally love them.

now i am addicted to them. i can't let myself stop singing of their song.

Tell me (credit to http://www.jpopasia.com/play/4295/wonder-girls/tell-me.html)

come sing with me...lallalala... i have the song in this page. click on the right, at the song list please.

or you can click here for the video clip TELL ME

Neodo nal johahal juleun mollasseo
Eojjemyeon joha neomuna joha
Ggumman gataseo na naejasineul jaggu
Ggojibeobwa neomuna joha
Nega nal hoksi an johahalkkabwa
Honja eolmana aetaeunji molla
Geureonde nega nal saranghandani
Eomeona dashi han beon malhaebwa

Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Nareul saranghandago nal gidaryeowadago
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Naega pilyohada malhae malhaejweoyo
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Jagguman deutgo shipeo gyeosok naege malhaejweo
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Ggumi anirago malhae malhaejweoyo

Eojjeom nae gaseumi ireoke ddwini
Gaseumi jeongmal teojil geot gata
Naega nal bul ddaemyeon jeongie gamjeondwin
Saramcheoreom jeongiga olla
Eolmana orae gidarinji molla
Eolmana orae ggumggweotneunji molla
Geureonde nega nal saranghandani
Eomeona dashi han beon malhaebwa

Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Nareul saranghandago nal gidaryeowadago
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Naega pilyohada malhae malhaejweoyo
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Jagguman deutgo shipeo gyeosok naege malhaejweo
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Ggumi anirago malhae malhaejweoyo

**Bridge
Tell me, tell me, tell me you want me,
want me, want too
Tell me, tell me, tell me
you love me too, love me too

Hit me one time baby
dashi han bun (Tell me Tell me)
Okay banggeumhan gun aljiman
ddo han bun (Tell me T-Tell me)
Yeah
kyesok malhaejwuh deuluhdo
deuluhdo deudgo shipuh
uhjjum iruhn ili
ggoominka shipuh
(uhmuhna) uhmuhna johasuh uhjjuhna
(dashi han bun malhaebwa)
Baby Baby
Eolmana orae gidarinji molla
Eolmana orae ggumggweotneunji molla
Geureonde nega nal saranghandani
Eomeona dashi han beon malhaebwa

Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Nareul saranghandago nal gidaryeowadago
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Naega pilyohada malhae malhaejweoyo
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me
Jagguman deutgo shipeo gyeosok naege malhaejweo
Tell me, tell me, tell tell tell tell tell tell me

and this, is the male version. please click here. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. you will like it. no joke. haha. WONDER BOYS

tagged by iera

and so i was tagged by iera.

before that a recap of last week events.

friday: finished class! yeay. oh not. with works. wee i love. went to Football Eve something something, though by the time we arrive we could see people walking in opposite direction aka the night was over. lol.

saturday: sleep n dreams.

sunday: sleep n dreams.

monday: the first day of fasting!!!!! iftar at the mosque. the food was super duper delicious!!! thank you very very much!!!! plus, holiday! (labor day)

tuesday: class began. yeay.

wednesday: classes.

thursday: one class only. yeay.

friday: 3 classes. the same schedule with wednesday. but i got so tired by the end of the second class. why?

back to the tag: sorry for doing very late.

First name : Sharifah Nor Baizura

Nickname : Baizura, Bye, Sharifah, Shari.

Name you wish you had: I kind of fancy of name ended with -sha such as natasha.

What do people normally mistake your name as: Beya, Bee ( my ex schoolmate) or any name with initial 'B'.

Birthday: 31 Mac 1989

Birthplace: Sarawak General Hospital

Time of birth: evening..maybe..

Single or taken: not married

Zodiac sign: Aries

:BLOGGER APPEARANCE: (wth?)

How tall are you: I'm a shorty not tall.

Wish you were taller: Yessssss!!

Eye color: Black dark chocolate.

Eye color you want: Green emerald.

Natural hair color: Rainbow

Hair color: Rainbow

Short or long hair: Medium

Ever dye your hair a bizarre color: Water color sudeyh..

Curly,Straight,Wavy: Sunsilk woo~

Last time you did something dramatic with your hair: I can't recall but it was baboya~~ (stupid in Korea)

Glasses or contacts: Neither. I want crystal clear black eyes!

Do you wear make-up: Nope...

Ever had hair extensions: Nada..

Paint your nails: Nope...

:OPPOSITE THOUGHT: (hurm?)

What color eyes: Brown

What color hair: Brown or Black

Shy or outgoing: Both

Looks or personality: Both

Sexy or cute: sexy bit cute bit macho more. lol. hahha joking.

Serious or fun: serious 40% fun 60%

Older or younger than you: Older please.

:THIS OR THAT :

Flowers or chocolate: Chocolate. Anything edible.

Pepsi or Coke : Pepsi

Rap or rock: Rock

Relationship or one night stand : relationship

School or work : Both

Love or money : Both.. both are important. money can't buy happiness? i disagree somehow.

Movies or music : Both

Sunny or rainy days : Both

Friends or family : Family first but friends are important too.


:HAVE YOU EVER:

Lied : Yup..

Stole something : I think so..

Smoked : Nope..

Hurt someone close to you: Yep.

Broke someones heart : Yep.

Had you heart broken : Yep.

Wish you were a prince/princess : Sometimes. who doesn't?

Liked someone : Yesssss.

Liked someone who was taken : Yeppp.

Shaved your head : Never.

Been in love : Once.

Used chopsticks : Yerpp.


:FAVOURITES:


Flower : Not much.

Candy : Not much.

Song : Universal.

Scent : Anything. Nothing specific.

Color : Green, Black, White and Pink.

Movie : A walk to remember.

Word : "Uh-huh" not "ahak" (like what pijan tried to make fun of me)

Junk food : M&M crispy.

Website : www.baizuralovescatsomuch.com

Animal : Miawwwww. Recently, rabbit and squirrel.

Ever cried over someone : Yep. not just someone, but certain ones.

Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself : I hope I don't get desperately friendly easily at most time.

Your biggest fear: Fear of losing faith.

Do you think you're attractive : I don't know. You tell me.

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose : Allice in wonderland.

Do you play any sports : Congkak, batu seremban.

i'm thinking of not to pick on anyone, baik kan? lol.

happy ramadhan!

oh great.

i just missed a class.

the only class.

x_x

happy fasting to all muslims.

hope all of us can enjoy ramadhan this year.

good luck good luck good luck.

p/s: i will never ever register for 8am class for the next sem. ever.

my love

cehh. what a title duh?

my love= my homework.

haha.

yeah right.
since i've no lover in human shape so i should make them my lovers.
lalala merepek.

ok time to study and get done my homework!!!!!!

syuhhhhhhhhhhh syaitan2 jahat go awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy...~

waiting for that particular person.

i think it's time. it's the time for a new post.

wahahha what an introduction?

ha.ha. whatever.

anywayyy.. right now at this very moment... i am waiting patiently for this one particular creature to come into this computer lab in Findlay Commons. (if you wondering what the heck is this place, hurm it's like a place, like a hall that has several places to dine and also a place to hang out and study too. in short: a rojak place? (rojak is a food when you mix up any kind of food or fruit in a bowl and add in sauce)) oh ho.

so now after waiting for almost one hour, seems like that particular creature won't show up.
oh i wonder where that creature is?

anyhow, today i had math class and econs. math was just as normal as usual. and yeah we had short quiz, it was moderately easy, hope i got it right...amin... econs? hurm, i have 2 hour and a half right after math class for econs. so i went to the HUB (ngaa forgot what it stands for but it a place where you can get anything you want. okay not almost everything but yeah most of the thing). i guess i need to speak louder and stop plugging earphones in my ear every time i need to order food. i was refraining myself from eating fish and chips and fish sandwich instead. but somehow that didn't come out very clear. and so fish and chips for my day. which means for lunch and dinner. maybe you wonder why. do ya? americans eat in such a big portion if you compare to Malaysian I would likely say. i could never finished the meal (the big ones). so that explains why the americans are bigger than us. a bit of regret there for not articulating the order well. i know i know this may sound confusing and you might wonder what the heck is she's writing? i don't know either. haha simply craps.

eating at Findlay dining hall is super duper fun and doesn't really a good food for my stomach. i think i'm alergic to cheese. since everytime i eat cheese, a few hours after that, my stomach will go crazy. huhu.

so that's about it. all i know is eat and eat.

right after econs class finish and that's it. i'm done for the day. i waited for White Loop (a bus) to come. called umar and forced him to get me some stuffs..haha cruel? ;P since he was in walmart with Hani and Aini so why not. I am so lazy to go there. I rather walked than take the bus. but noooo. it is too far. i'm not shafieq or kamal or acab who walked to walmart. walked. alright. they walked. they walked on road. they did not walked on the road to get on the bus to get to walmart. they walked on the road solely to get to walmart. crazy? yeah you judge. well not to make things huge, that is a record. none of us have ever thought of doing so. yea yea, good jobs boys.

then next stop was at&t. it's a mobile company. i went there to change my phone since it made some annoying sounds and people were laughing and giggling about it. so yeah i get a new one. hope this one will not make any sound. hopefully. now almost most of us got our own phones so it makes easy to get one another. perhaps to catch dinner or just to go in a large group to noneother than walmart. haha.

then back to my room. Marie my room mate was not around. i did know what to do, just get my table clear. few minutes afterwards, she came in and we filled in the Roomate Agreement. it is such a convenient way to communicate and accommodate well with roommate, i can sure you date. the forms require us to be honest about some matters that may come up one day and cause trouble to roommates. so it is a good thing. we agree on some stuffs and disagree on some too. but most of the time we get along very well. i don't know. maybe we both are easy going and don't really mind about small little things. hope we both can be a very good roommate. i mean good as in we both can talk to each other if there's anything wrong. yeah one thing she noticed is that we both are quite. and it turn out that we both actually not. it just that well yea, we both are from different life styles so we need time adapt to new surrounding. so excuse us. my floor mates are very nice. whenever we meet, we say hi and hello or just smile. that one thing i really like about people here. they are so polite that i seldom bump to anyone since we watch on our pace and make sure others won't get hurt. the only thing that i don't really fancy about is that they are loud and yeah never study in your room unless it is 4 in the morning. no worry, there are tons of room to study here. especially the library. i l-0-v-e the library. i intend to spend my weekends there. weepee. hope that will come true and i won't end up strolling around the campus again without motive.

aha. it almost dinner time. so i need to get out of this place. yeah one thing. although i have my own laptop in my room but i seldom touch on it. you see, i can find computers almost everywhere and get the access to log in to the net too. isn't dat cool. now i realize why seniors said that computer is not really neccessary. phone is indeed neccessary. it will be super hard without phone. yes. indeed.

ok ok got to go.
sorry no pictures. and again, you can always click on my friendster account for pictures.
till next time.
sayonara~