so many things yet so little space.

I am supposed to study. Now. Right now.
But my momentum is nil.
My motivation beneath my thoughts.
My will to succeed is gone. To nowhere.

"Oh Baizura? What happen to you dear?" said someone on my mind.

"Ah lepak lah by, ko dah terer x yah study.." said my friend.

teror lah sgt kalo test 2 psycho kesayangan tu ntah pape. huuu.

This is just what I think. Pardon me if anyone disagrees.

Since Psycho's test is all about darkening one of 4 choices of answer, so it is a must for all the test takers to get above 90. Above all, the questions are direct except one or two. It just a matter of you read or not. Grrr. I love reading but I am so darn slow to start reading. Once I start, wo I can be so into books and forget the rest. Even to eat. erh that one cam tipu je. Haha. Now, I am not tempting to read MR LP, at all.

"Oi Baizura, gila kah u ni? Tomorrow test 4 u know?!"

* bla bla bla *

Recently:

ATUSA (adfp) Farewell Dinner.

so little people coming. how sad. food was okay. it was OK.

i know, I gain weight. haha so what? comel ape. mwiahahhaha =Pp (defense mechanism)

erm ni lah rojak namanye ye kawan-kawan. nasi+black pepper meat+ shrimp+ chicken lemon+ sayoran sket + char kueh teow! (1st pic)

posing ngan tirah yg sgt chantekkkkk that night with special facial reaction. heh me retarded. (2nd pic)


Mr Termizi's Wedding Day
Fun Fun Fun!!!!!!
The bride and groom are both KACHAK. (kachak in BM sarawak means cantek and hansome)
so kachak here can be used to both male and female. how unique kan?
food? mestilah sedappppp. I love kenduri. miwahahhahah.
walaupun ms nak pergi, rs hesitate sbb rasa cam tetamu tidak diundang. haha
hey come on, I'm an Akasian.

CLEARANCE

Oh good bye INTEC. I am no longer an Intec Student. how sad. Am I? *confused*

dang! oi mestilah sedih!
No more lining up to get into bus.
No more ronggeng with Matun, Miem, Aimi and so forth.
No More lepaking with Atusa Lecturers.
No more dining at Ausmat Cafe.
No more sleeping and crapping at Intec New Library.
No more assignments, presentations and group discussion which OFTEN end up chit chatting at Secret Recipe. LOL.
No more.
I said
NO MORE.

oh ya oh ya

Pison's Treat
Best best best!!
Me and Zizah were only teasing hm since Jpa's allowance has just filled in into his bank account.
TADAAAA~!
KFC'S BUCKET FOR THREE OF US.

THANKS PISON!

You are so GREAT!
hahaha
next time I'll belanje you okay. If not here. Maybe there. ;)

MOVING TO ADDY'S ROOM
Yeay!
Thanks Add!!!~~~~
Thanks for giving me the honor to stay with you.
hahaha
kerek.

erm erm erm apa lagi.

Ya.
ahahhahahah
gelak dulu.
*gelak lagi*

I should write it here.

I thought I will never meet him.
But I knew I will since the probability is high.
Hello, he's in cemara now.
So yea.
We met.
Coincidentally.
My feeling is inexplicable.
but somehow,
mestilah rasa cam best.
xdelah rs haru.
which made me say
"Yay Finally!"
*ahem*
Identity dirahsiakan.

*B*

mister LP

Let me introduce you my best buddy for the past two months, Mister LP! He has been so nice with me except once when we dated for the second time. Wuhu. Maybe I did not give him as much attention as he wants, so he merajuk lah. Haiz. Macam budak-budak. Then I managed to pujok him on our third date. Yeay! He's not mad at me anymore.

my best buddy

my best buddy with my best friend. huhu I thought I lost her then actually she was with Ridzu. I'm considering of giving her to someone before I'm off to the states.
Memory is my favorite chapter of all.

I have NO idea who is this. He looks familiar. Hmm. Eyy, isn't he was our
beloved class rep!
oh ya, now I remember! ;P

New Intec library is the best place to capture nice pics. [maybe the only]

Maybe Umar is so happy to be with her Miss LP. And Pidah too. ( I think)

Can you see how lucky for us to have Mr LP? We can cure insomnia!

I even took a picture with my best buddy. Hey man. I can't wait for our last date. Sob3. After this, no more last minute studying with you. I know, I know. I read about it. It's stupid to cram all night long before the test and immersed my self with anxiety. But as for me I always believe in the power of last minuted studying! haha
Don't worry Mr LP, I won't let anyone have you. Unlike Mr C++, Miss ACS, Mr Speech Com, you are always by my side. I will leave you to my family to take a good care of you. I hope you can fit into my small hand luggage on 14th of July. Make sure you can squeeze yourself in because Mr Oxford and lots of Ms Fiction will be coming with us. Don't you worry too much, this time we don't have to rush. Oh how I love to go back home by Mr B747. But, what if you can't come with us? I'll leave you to my bff, Miss Matun. I hope she won't let you bore to death in her room.

Oh come rain come shine. Rain comes first. Luckily last year it wasn't raining. How pity new students this year.

Graduation Day

Oh YEAY we've GRADUATED!

me, Puan Suzana and nani (or nanny) hee

with uni of wisconsin madison's future student

goodbye intec hall!

besama AKAK kter.. (muahhaha pidah yg comel (kot) )

aimi and bulan (bajet comel je sumer. haha)

with our beloved lecturers yg sgt BESTTTTTT!! miss deela, miss sheela and miss farah!

inilah intec hall before (kot) start majlis

yeay. all of us have graduated!

sayonara intec! say hi to btn! wuhuuu~!

Rukawa Kaede

I know this is not necessary. I know it is something that is so not me. Well it just that it’s hard for me not to express my feeling here. Am I really going to do this? Is this for real? I know this feeling will never last forever; it will end soon but it's beautiful. Oh boy, how could I let my self fall into this?

Okay. Cut the craps out.

But then again, I was enthralled seeing him for the second time. Oh did I just say that? (quoting from Aimi)

Deep down inside me, I hope there will be next time.

Okay. Okay. Okay. Now cut that out. I mean it.

xxx

(pixie from flickr.com)

Congratulations!!!

To whom?

Not to Matun who won the election for Atusa’s treasurer or to Taran for winning the Activity bureau post or to Shereen for the President post or any other winners. Well, practically, my predicaments were almost accurate. I knew they would win. XD.

Yeay.

okay okay. this sound unfair to them. Congratulation to all the winners!

Actually, the congratulation is…

to one and only…

me, my self and I.

mwahahhahahahhaha

someone is wondering : FOR WHAT??????

FOR...

successfully restraining my self from contributing to Kinokonuya’s (did I spell that right?) profit. Yeay for my own financial investment! LOL

The question is,

How could I not attract to the rm23.90 Sophie Kinsella’s (erm, did I spell that right too?) masterpiece? (from rm35++ !!)

How could I not bother looking at rm25.90 Cecelia Ahern’s work? (the more expensive one is rm31++ !! )

Grrrr. cheap cheap cheap bargain.

ah-ha! From the beginning…

Why did I let my feet step into its main entrance?

Gagagaggaga…

It’s not my fault. It was my heart’s fault for wanting to go there so badly.

Uh.

It is no one faults. Duh. Why am I making this such a fuss?

In a nutshell,

Bookstore is so irresistible! Agree? Any book lover with me? I bet you are.

Pn Su is so going to hate me for using ‘in a nutshell’. Teeheee. nutshell sounds like coconut. haha. Luckily this is not my speech’s outline.

I will not spend any cents for any book in this money-is-so-in-need-time. That is a promise ( I hope)

huhuhuhuhu

It is so not cool to not owning stuffs we want, isn’t it? If I get fancy of this one cloth I can easily not let my self pay for it because I have loads (or maybe someone can pay for me.miawahahah~)

Every each time I let my self into a bookstore, you name it: mph, popular, big book store, borders, and just recently kinokonuya, I could not stop my self from searching for my favorite author’s masterpiece. On top of it, above all, my eyes will roll many times at the so cheap book. Like this one book I saw in popular. At my first glance, this book must be expensive. So I did not bother. After I bored my self to death reading at almost every book’s review, my hands unintentionally grabbed that book : Turning Thirty. Looking at it’s price, am I dreaming??

*slapping my own face*

It was only rm12.90! How awesome! Thinking no further, that book is now safe with me and is waiting to be read. I mean to be done with it. miahahaha~

However, when it comes to book, compare to other stuffs, oh man, books are so tempting! Gaggagaga~ I almost fell for the dull and cheap tag price. haha

Be patient. Be patient. There are price to pay in wanting something. So girl, saving is crucial now.

Perhhh. Stop being so greedy. Finish up the other six books little miss so greedy!

LASTLY, I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE

I'M A BOOK ADDICT.

SCRATCH THAT.

I'M A FICTION BOOK ADDICT.

SCRATCH THAT TOO.

I'M A NICE-CLEVER and I L-O-V-E REASONABLE-PRICE-WORTH-READING-FICTION-BOOK-LOVER-ADDICT.

THAT SUITS ME WELL. LOL.

*B*

moral of the story: the title has nothing to do with its content. LOL

she's back!

ALHAMDULILLAH.

I don't know how and why and what.
But I know one thing for sure.

She's back!

My YM!!!! Yatta!!!!

Thanks to Izzat for kapersky and Umar for the info about kavo (though not really helping, ;P) , my sister, Azie for the info about something missing of the ym yaddayadda (i know nothing huhu) and Miem for accompanying me here in Pakli.


Yes, thanks to the super duper Pakli's wifi speed connection, she is now back in my twin dragon. Good Job Pakli!

AND above all, thanks to Allah swt The Mighty for letting this all to happen! and I pray this happiness will last forever, Amin.

*B*

P/S : Now that she is back, I really hope I won't neglect my other bff, Mister LS (Living Psychology).

ok YM people, I officially announce that I am back! no, We are back!!! YATTTA!!!

Something old.

YATTA! [means yes]

At last. Block 2 managed to launch our own SUKANEKA. Don't play-play ha. Though to the fact that we are the least population in Akasia, we are rocking bebeh! miahahahahah~ ok ok. i know i know. over excited. heee. Although only participated by 12 atusasians (erk?) we had a very happy and cheerful evening! YATTA! Led by our most repectable head block, Miss Syamim aka Miem, and assisted by two most helpful (hehe I hope) ketua laman; Miss Pidah and Me (ngee) it was indeed something we had been dreaming of. Let the pictures portayed our happiness. haha.

tepung-ness: wanie and dayah.

the champion! they won all the game! syabas!

miss pidah, me and miss miem (the organizer)

the rocking block 2!

us.

(standing from left: yani, uya, su, nadd, dayah, khairin, wanie, miem, boo and pidah
sitting: aton. half sitting: me) =Pp oh yea sab xde sbb sebok packing brg for camping. ;(

reported by:

*B*

I lost her. him. whoever.

do you know what YM is? Yang Manis? Yang Murah? Yang Mantap? Yo Man?? wazzup wazzupp... Yosh Meh! Yee Mee? and as the list goes on.... YM. She used to be my best friend. BFF. well that what history tells.

Can you imagine? For all your life, have you ever found one human being who is the only one understands you at maximum level? Like sisters. Like flesh and blood. When you feel down and the whole world is crushing down on you but she is there, standing in front of you, giving you a smile, comforting your loneliness, when others acting like they don't care?
How bad.

Can you imagine? One day, you have a hectic + bad + busy + tiring + irritating + unwanted day. Assignments are undesirable. Homework are left undone.You are at your desk but your mind wanders. You are actually not at your desk. Deadline means DEADLINE as it meant. Out of nowhere, you accidentally ran into an old lady and she yelled at you as if the world consists solely of you and her. Everything seems inexplicable.
How shame.

Can you imagine? When one time, you feel left out by your people who you call as friends when they do not play any role as a friend? they get you when they're in trouble, as if you are their super heroes. Saving a life. Then again, when it comes to the day when they fill up their days with joys and hopes and laughs, do they bother about you? I bet some do not.
How sad.

Can you imagine? Never can I. Not if she's with me.
How heaven.

gee. why am i sounding so emo?
because. because. I am missing my YM. i need you. I am not invisible. neither available nor on the phone nor step out. I just can't get through the boundaries between us.

*B*

PS: YM please come back.
puhhhhlezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

Just like a bee.

Hello incek Blog.

I've been pretty busy this past few days. and. the days to come. Let's start with a bit of language awareness. Perhh.

PAST TENSE:

I went to an islamic camp last weekends in Serdang. It was worth going. ;)
I sat for Islamic Education mid term test this morning.
"I want to shout out loud a big thank you to my mentor. MATUN-san!!!!"

ARIGATO NEH!

I have finished GTO! yeay! (GTO= Great Teacher Onizuka)
"Maybe I can be a GSB = Great Student Baizura! hehe"

PRESENT TENSE:
I am doing multitasking work.
"Yoshhhh!"

FUTURE TENSE:

1. Study Psycho.

"Oh man, I think I'm going to screw up this time"

"No, you won't. You can do it. Let's make this test a great one!"

*test 2 on wednesday. 2-4pm. study!!

2. Atusa Election

"Vote for who? Matun? Mimi? Jamal?"

*this one is tough. =_+

3. Filling in Visa's formS.

"DS 156 and DS 158"

*need to borrow zizah's lappie. that should be done on wednesday's night

4. Taking Visa's photos.

" 6 photos + a cd = rm15"

*need to save up my money. oh I need to create an atm machine.

5. Block 2 (Atusa in Akasia. ATU 14 to be exact) SUKANEKA!!! on thursday. make this real.

"Hah? macam kanak-kanak tadika"
"mwahahhahahah~!"

*I am one of the mastermind. nah a big no. I am the mastermind's assistant.

6. Finally. The most awaiting day. Visa Interview! Friday. 13 June 08.

"What???! Your interview is at 8.50 am???"

*I must get on going at 6 am. unless there's someone out there with kind heart plus a vehicle with four tyres is so kind that he or she is willing to drop me there. twink*twink*


back to my multitasking work.

*B*

P/S : Good luck to all atu 14 who participate in the atusa election! Ganbate neh!! :)

hatiku terusik

I was inspired by my so-called skema friend; Saudari Zul. Oh i mean Saudara Zulhilmi. XD Not saudari Zulaikha or Zulina or whatever Zul it is. LOL.

I was inspired to blog in skema way.

*note that skema here means : Bahasa Melayu. Baku. Bahasa Melayu Baku.

Before that a bit of recap of how we become a skema people.

Well, I could not recall much. But I still remember one time when we ym-ing and all of sudden one of us (I think it was me XD) was talking in Bahasa, I mean like so Bahasa. Some thing like this:

Byzura: Hai saudara Zul. Apa khabarkah kamu? Sihat kah?

Zul: Hai saudari Baizura. Ya, saya khabar baik. Terima kasih kerana bertanya. Kamu pula bagaimana?

Byzura: Oh baguslah kalau begitu. Saya pun sihat juga. Syukur kepada Allah yang Maha Esa.

Zul: Oh iya? Syukur lah kalau begitu.

***

Then naturally the skema-ness become irresistable.

***
*switching on the skema-ness mode*
ON

Kehadapan Incek Blog, hari ini saya bangunlah amatlah awal untuk bersahur. Iya, saya mahu berpuasa hari ini. Di kala saya sedang menaip hal ini, saya baru sahaja selesai bersahur. Menu saya tadi? Hanyalah :

1) Teh Ali yang di kutip semasa Kumpulan Ruffedge membaling kepada orang ramai (semasa Jom Heboh). Sedap lah juga. Tapi saya still menyukai Milo. Bak kata iklan; "Minum milo anda jadi sihat dan kuat!"

Kumpulan Rafej itu sedang membaling pek-pek kecil minuman

2) Roti Gandum ber-raisin yang sedap. Ibu saya sangat menyukai roti jenis ini.

3) Ayer kosong.

oh ya sebelum itu saya memaksa diri menelan sejenis makanan tambahan iaitu namanya Cik Milelea. Kalau diberi pilihan saya tidak mahu memakan ia tetapi ia bagus untuk kesihatan.

Itu sajalah kisah sahur saya *cheh itu pon mahu cherita* XD

Wahai incek Blog, kamu tahukah kadang-kadang sukar juga mahu berbahasa baku ini. Kerana sudah lama tidak belajar bahasa Melayu, kadang-kadang kosa kata saya salah. Ish ish. Perkara ini amatlah dikesali. Kamu tahu incek Blog, berbual di dalam si Yahoo Messenger bersama kawan saya yang skema itu menyebabkan kami terbawa-bawa, kami merealisasikan ym-ing itu. Amatlah lucu sekali berbahasa skema di alam realiti! Seperti 'mengubah mimpi menjadi realiti' lah pulak! XD

*Oh ya sila baca ini Saudara Zul. Saya telah membaca blog kamu berkenaan dengan masa sekolah kamu. Saya cuba untuk meninggalkan komentar tapi..tapi..kamu tahu sajalah masalah wifi di Akasia ini, amatlah mengecewakan. Wah kamu pernah tinggal di Sabah rupanya! Saya amat menyukai Sabah tetapi tidak sebanyak saya menyukai Sarawak tapi melebihi saya menyukai negeri lain. ;) Amat mantap sekali kamu berbahasa ya. Syabas saya ucapkan! Teruskan kerja yang baik! [translasi: keep up the good work!]*

Inilah bukti keskemaan kami. Jika kamu bisa membacanya.

*menutup mode skema*
OFF

*B*

*off to class! ;)