biological clock

craps. slept at 6 am and woke up at 9 and with half dizzy head but full of determination and hopes to sit for econ test. i know that is not healthy and i should think of the consequences but i just could not help my self. marie was worried of my biological clock that for the past three days, i constantly went back to our room at least at 2am.

"where were you all night?" (from her tone, she might think i went for party or something)
"study. i have econ test. die. i'll be a nerd"
"i too have exams."
"ooo we have exam", in sarcastic tone.

cramped your head all night studying for tomorrow's exam is not the next best thing aka opportunity cost.

-_-

fat.

i used to despise girls who always want to get thinner though they are ridiculously thin!
but i am not any near to those girls' body image.

bad.

seriously.

i need to sweat! i need to get all the fats out!

so now i realize that i'm getting bigger and bigger and i am not happy at all.

lose weight = happy face.

so now i am going to exercise!

yes that's the spirit!

p/s: heh ali, soon i will no more be 'by gemok'.

saya. saya. saya.

saya sangat lah penat hari ini. saya tidak kisah bahasa apa mahu guna untuk blog sebab ia milik saya. seperti pepatah inggeris, 'who cares?' jadi 'siapa kisah'.
suhu di penn state ini sudah semakin menurun menyebabkan saya sangatlah sejuk senantiasa. tambahan pula work load semakin hari semakin semangat dan bergumbira hadir dalam hidup saya. mahu sahaja saya mencarut-carut tapi ia tidak baik untuk kesihatan rohani. saya mahu cerita saya ada test selasa ini despite kebusy-an saya. inilah kehidupan kami ya. test pada selasa ini ialah math 140 aka calculus 1. saya baru sahaja mendapat markah homework math yang saya sudah berhempas pulas minggu lepas dan saya aimed 10 tapi last-last saya dapat 8.5. Ia membuatkan saya terkasima dan berkata 'why??????????? tell me why???"
punyalah saya tidak tidur malam mahu membuat benda alah itu dan hasilnya? sangat tidak memuaskan. mungkin ada yang berkata 'alah 8.5 okay lah tu!'. tapi anda haru mengerti bahawa rakan-rakan seperjuangan saya sewenang-wenangnya mendapat 10 per 10 tidak kisah betul ke tidak jawapannya! bukankah ini tidak adil?

ya.

dunia ini memang tidak adil. jadi saya mengambil langkah bijaksana sini dengan sabar dan tawakal ngan apa yang saya dapat. Allah maha mengetahui. mungkin hikmah disebalik jendela kaca ini ialah supaya saya sedar diri dan berusaha lagi dan terus berusaha. mungkin saya juga perlu muhasabah diri dan membuat 'self reflection'. ya.

apa-apapun. saya mahu cerita raya saya disini. dan tiada gambar ya. semua ada di muka buku.

saya suka raya sebab.
dapat makan kek lapis. tengs sooooooo much haleem! u made me feel like i am home. cewah macam lagu la plak.
dapat makan rendang. tengs sooooooooooo much seniors!
dapat makan serundingggggggggggg. waaaaaaaaaaaaa by the moment ade orang letak bekas serunding di atas carpet, saya terus dengan muka tak taw malu dan gersang-kan kempunankan serunding terus mencilok sebanyak boleh ke dalam mulut. hah itu dia!
dapat makan almost sume lawok pawok raya!

saya juga tidak suka raya sebab.
takde mak,abah, dan adik beradik dan juga makcik makcik pakcik pakcik kazen kazen.
tak dapat salam family. huhuuh ;(
tiada duit raya straight dari pocket baju melayu abah. hihi ;P

kesimpulannya minggu lepas sangatlah busy mengalahkan cik kiah nak uruskan rombongan gi kampong cik bedah.

sekali lagi beribu-ribu kalungan terimas kepada seniors. ;)

dan Allah SWT, for this to happen.

doakan saya utk test ni ye! saya rasa cam ape je study math.

hari ni saya sangat penatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt. :(

hey it's hot in here!

not.

sangat sejuk.

it's freezing.

huhuhuhuhuh

harap otak kami x beku.

aminnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

Hari Raya

setinggi-tingginya penghargaan kepada saudari Zul Bobby.
tsk tsk.
terharu tergaru saya dibuatnya!

p/s: saya sangat rindukan kebakuan kamu! huhauhauha
***

to all my family, relatives and friends in Malaysia.

Selamat Hari Raya. ;)

.Please forgive my wrong doings.
.Please pray for my success.
.Please pray for my savety.

(=.=")

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waha kesilapan pemilihan kata di atas.

*saudara Zul

hihi

saya suke buat tag!!!

from flickr.com
(out of many flavors m&m has, whyyyy la on earth kat sini takde Crunchy flavor??? siap ade yg the latest flav that i belive most people will craze for, mint flavor. peanut butter la ape la. isk haru.)

although i know my works has piled up but i still want to do this tag. dah siap i cepat2 pegi study room okay.

tagged by Farhan. Thanks bro.

My Top 10 Most Favorite Foods:
1. Rendang
2. Ayam pelbagai masakan
3. Chocolate : Kit Kat & M&M Crunchy
4. Serundinggggggggggggggggggggg. sgt craving!
5. Cheese Cake
6. Kek Lapis Evergreen and the one that has cadbury between its layer. sgt sedap tp mahal. isk.
7. Nasik goreng cina
8. Mushroom soup
9. Ice cream yang ade biskut dlm die but not cookies creamy.
10. Milo. Nanti jadi sehat dan kuat.

10 Things I love doing
1. Reading Hlovate's books and web over and over again sampai geram sbb byk story hanging. ;(
2. Reading Sophie Kinsella's book.
3. Reading Susan Elizabeth Philips' book.
4. Online : Check email, check angel, check facebook, friendster. etc etc.
5. Blog hopping. (always did back in Intec during summer sem)
6. Getting extra napping
7. Walking instead of naik kenderaan
8. Window shopping
9. Listen to love songs kat yahoo messenger. i really love those songs by air suply now listening to Nicole Kidman- come what may. sangat sukerrrr. nostalgic.
10. Hang out with friends: just lepak, main game, basketball.

5 types of guy I adore
1. benz alif
2. ked
3. AO
4. benz alif
5. benz alif

i know i know. what the heck lah kan. benz alif, ked, AO are not TYPES of guy. but i adore them jugak. can't write their qualities down sebab too many? hee. want to know them, click here

5 things i love doing when i'm emo
1. sleep. yes sleeps cure almost everything.
2. read al-quran, really helps.
3. if critical sgt, cried in the bathroom. define critical? my biggest problem in the wide world macam when my cat yang sayang sgt2 mati or when i did not study hard when i suppose to do so or when i let down someone or hurt someone's feeling or when i feel no one to hold on to when i deadly need one or when i couldn't find my biggest comfort or yadayada ok saya memang suke digress dan bebel.
4. confess and confide with close friend or mostly my family. preferably the opposite gender.
5. being all alone.

5 things i love doing when I'm happy
1. Sleep. too happy sampai xtaw nak buat ape. tido je laa.
2. Eat stuff that i rarely eat.
3. Giggling, laughing, smiling, praising.
4. Buat mata bersinar-sinar to show that I'm happy and make people happy too. contagious no?
5. let it all out in my blog? haha.

5ways to win my heart
1. be sarcastic and accept my sarcasm.
2. buat lawak selawak lawak alam.
3. masak sedap2. hee.
4. caring
5. open minded and positive thinker

5 things i wish to happen
1. graduate dengan mantap terbaik : distinction and dapat kerja baik
2. get married to the man that i deserve. we deserve each other
3. gathering with all my frens dari kecik umor sbulan sampai laa ni.
4. travel all around the world.
5. bukak pet shop

3 ridiculous things to do before die
1. meet Oprah. tp tu x ridiculous pun. haha wateva.
2. erk xtaw
3. erk x tawwww. can't think of any.

my top 10 addicted songs
1. tell me - wonder girls
2. lies - big bang
3. air supply songs.
4-10. anything. i'm very universal.

10 people to tag:

anyoneeeeeeeeeeeee!! hehe i'm so baik. ;)

i'll do the other tag latter once i found all the pictures.

penn state won the game.

i feel like to puke. cheese pizza. urgh. adolescence+ pizza+cheaper by the dozen+ ps i love you+ penn staters cheers+ stomach full = lost of contentment. i wish i am not a lazy bump. i wish i'm a hardworking or swot (new vocab learn from a friend). i wish i'm an organized and high achiever. well truthfully, i am not. but i always want to be one. i always do. recently i have too many distractions. i thought i have fully adjusted to life in penn state. oh i'm wrong. i need to get this things back to its pace. if i want to be what i thought i want to be, i have to sacrifice lots of things. can't i just be like one of my friend? she's having all the fun she could possible have yet she's still manage to maintain her grades. why can't i be like her? i wished to change my life, sligthly perhaps. i wish to enjoy every single thing i learn; then it will be more meaningful. learning in school is not just to get an A. it is for my life. for as long as i may live. insyaAllah. i seriously need a good reason to get myself back on the track. i need motivation.

congrats penn state! we beat illinois. ;)

mercedes benz.

saya sangat suker benz alif okay.
sangat suker.
xtahu la wujud ke tidak orang kat dunia ni macam benz alif.

-__-

i always imagine him as i don't know, one of pelakon tv, of course. haha.

i wish i can get my own benz alif one day. ha.ha. as if. i don't think he exists. but manalah taw. mesti ade. mesti. he's not perfect. but but. he has the efforts to make himself a better man. that what we human always seek for. maybe some of have read the book. some may not. whatever lah. i still want to crap about him here. my place. wahaha.

real name: benz alif sulaiman (huh? wth? benz? mercedes? wth???)
nickname: benji
fav sport: basketball. (uh, he reminds me rukawa kaede!!!!!!!!!!!! yes exactly. no wonder i like him so much. cold-blooded human, ice cold gaze, and so on). i always like engineer. ade gaya u know. haha suke tengok je okay.
sponsor : pnb (ahaha pelu kah?)
age: 20+++ haha not sure. buku lah kan.
fav subject: add math ( saya jugaaaaaaaaaaa!)
careeer: engineer tuu. fly pegi UK guna result trial tuu. urban engineering. (xpena dgr)
ketinggian : tidak dketahui tapi agak tinggi coz main basket.
bentuk badan : unknown tp cam basketball player. i think.

now to the part i like the most. his characteristics:

egomaniac.
sarcastic. suker suker suker. buat sakit hati tp suker.
ambitious.
lepak. cool.
down to earth.
pensakat. (with his family and addin - his wife. isk.)
he can be serious when he need to be one. i like. i like. i like.
he can play guitar.
he can draw. sukerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
he is not friendly with anybody. lagi suker. so unlike me.
islamic. that is one thing we look for. (=.=)

i think above all, i think some of his characters resemble my old friend that i cared so much. i hope i can meet him again. who knows. now we hate each other. in future? .................

i like him but i don't think we deserve each other. oh man, i can't believe i mention this thing here.
enough said.

esok nak test x sedar diri pulak dia ni. gi blaja laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. nanti u regret lagi baru taw like what u did in econ. hah. blaja! u kan suka psychology thingy. yes i am. so i nak study. now now now!

p/s: hope i can find my benz.

sahor.

I read this one blog. bapak slumber-lawak-sempoi that made my day. i laughed all night. although he seems to talk harshly but that is what reality really is. coolness. i like. make me want to blog somemore though i always feel like, 'does anyone read my blog?'. i also tempted to make my blog go private. in future perhaps.

i always account what people think of me. my male friends said girls are like that. i agree. i wish i could stop thinking about people thinking of us and start to think more about what i think of myself that eventually will reflect on my self-esteem. huish. see, i knew i have the psychology-mind.

yesterday i was darn tired. slept at 4, woke up at 10. although i completed my sleep cycle but it was nothing. not a quality sleep i often seek for. damn it. my quality sleep would begin at the latest 12am and end at 5am.

oh it is athan now. Happy Fasting to Penn Staters..

hah, since the title is sahor. so what did i eat? just a 3 in 1 healthy drink all away from Msia and some healthy cookies. i am eating healthy food.

i kept on changing this layout. i just not a setia person. does that reflects my relationship with people? naw. that is totally different okay.
i want new template. i badly need one. i need one. somebody teach me how to change this boring and dull template to the funky and nice nice nice on? *make cute face with big black round begging eyes*

today's night sleep is the best night sleep ever. wahaha. i am not joking, seriously. slept at 12 (this rarely happens) woke up at 5 just to eat. i seldom sahor but since yesterday proved i need some energy, now i can't skip sahor anymore. the not-so-fascinating-fact is that i'm gonna have my 8 am ESL class today! yeah keep the spirit high girl! go ESL go! i love ESL! i love the class materials that make me become more and more confuse about native-non-native speaker! on top of that, i like our instructor, Cassie. she is so cute that whenever she talks, the boys can't stop looking at her. hah, we girls notice okay. i often dash out to class at 7.45am, and calculate the marginal cost and lost - blahblah econ thingy. i count and calculate the amount of time to get to class and predict what time i will come to class. here it is:

distance from my room to class: i don't know. not very far. i didn't remember to bring my measuring tape.

duration from my room to class: i think i think la. 15mins. only if. i walk at faster rate.

and so now, after i had my nikey running shoes, eh no, make that women running shoes, i thought it would make a huge different. yes indeed. it does. from 15mins,i manage to deduct not much maybe 3mins, to get to class. 12mins. maybe maybe i don't know. whenever when i walk to class, when i know i will be late or maybe i will be very punctual, i sneak to my watch and start to estimate the time over and over again. somehow that is time consuming. i should be just walking. regardless how many times i become aware of the time i'm taking, the fact is that the route i take to class does not change and thus, it will be just the same. so now, since i take to account very very much of what people think of me, and i never wish Cassie to have bad impression of me, hey i need to change. today i will go to class at 7.30am though it feels like that is too early. way early. but hey hey, reputation means a lot to you rite. so be it.

enough said.

tuesday

it has been a wonderful day.

alhamdulillah.

i'm glad.

problem is now solved.

:)

anyhow, mid term for Adolescence Dev will be held on Fridayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
on the Thursday's night I have iftar in conjunction with Fast-A-THON.
should start reading early. 4 chapters. Readinggggg. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. sangat suker.
yet yet yet. i am so lazy to do my math homework. huhuhu esok i have econ, yeah repeat balek what i've learned on monday. then econ again. another section. then math. then adolescence. i like all of them. yeah i really do.

now i really like econ.
yes i like you econ. i love youuuuu econ.
a credit to SI intructor, Sarah Golsky for helping me today. Thanks a lot. :)