penn state won the game.

i feel like to puke. cheese pizza. urgh. adolescence+ pizza+cheaper by the dozen+ ps i love you+ penn staters cheers+ stomach full = lost of contentment. i wish i am not a lazy bump. i wish i'm a hardworking or swot (new vocab learn from a friend). i wish i'm an organized and high achiever. well truthfully, i am not. but i always want to be one. i always do. recently i have too many distractions. i thought i have fully adjusted to life in penn state. oh i'm wrong. i need to get this things back to its pace. if i want to be what i thought i want to be, i have to sacrifice lots of things. can't i just be like one of my friend? she's having all the fun she could possible have yet she's still manage to maintain her grades. why can't i be like her? i wished to change my life, sligthly perhaps. i wish to enjoy every single thing i learn; then it will be more meaningful. learning in school is not just to get an A. it is for my life. for as long as i may live. insyaAllah. i seriously need a good reason to get myself back on the track. i need motivation.

congrats penn state! we beat illinois. ;)