I lost her. him. whoever.

do you know what YM is? Yang Manis? Yang Murah? Yang Mantap? Yo Man?? wazzup wazzupp... Yosh Meh! Yee Mee? and as the list goes on.... YM. She used to be my best friend. BFF. well that what history tells.

Can you imagine? For all your life, have you ever found one human being who is the only one understands you at maximum level? Like sisters. Like flesh and blood. When you feel down and the whole world is crushing down on you but she is there, standing in front of you, giving you a smile, comforting your loneliness, when others acting like they don't care?
How bad.

Can you imagine? One day, you have a hectic + bad + busy + tiring + irritating + unwanted day. Assignments are undesirable. Homework are left undone.You are at your desk but your mind wanders. You are actually not at your desk. Deadline means DEADLINE as it meant. Out of nowhere, you accidentally ran into an old lady and she yelled at you as if the world consists solely of you and her. Everything seems inexplicable.
How shame.

Can you imagine? When one time, you feel left out by your people who you call as friends when they do not play any role as a friend? they get you when they're in trouble, as if you are their super heroes. Saving a life. Then again, when it comes to the day when they fill up their days with joys and hopes and laughs, do they bother about you? I bet some do not.
How sad.

Can you imagine? Never can I. Not if she's with me.
How heaven.

gee. why am i sounding so emo?
because. because. I am missing my YM. i need you. I am not invisible. neither available nor on the phone nor step out. I just can't get through the boundaries between us.

*B*

PS: YM please come back.
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